Monday, September 6, 2010

亲爱。

总忘不了,
躺在阿嬷的身边,盯着她沉睡的背影,默默落泪。

总忘不了,
被赶出家后,父亲找不到躲进卡车底下我而慌了的那一幕。

总忘不了,
那夜里铁门紧紧锁着,在找不到妈妈的大房子里吓得大哭。

总忘不了,
当自己被迫做出选择时,哪怕只是游戏 - 最终,我紧握着那写着“阿嬷”的破小纸,哭了好久,好久。

总忘不了的,
有太多,
太多。

从不说,因为我们以为。
我说,因为我认为。

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人心脆弱,但我们学会了成长,学会了掩饰,学会了忍耐,学会了坚强,
学会了爱。

学会了感恩和感动。


南无阿弥陀佛。

2 comments:

  1. dear chia yi,

    sometimes life is like that, sometimes u hav to make choices, sometimes u were wrong, but i believe most of the time u knew that u r right.
    just like me: i had to decide whether to futher my study in US or stay back to help my mom, choose to end my bachelor life n marry a girl i knew only 6 month, choose to accept humilation from my sister on my family or to fight back, so many decision we have to make during our journey of life, but we must have fate n stay on it, it may b painful, bitter or sad, but what ever decision we make, we must accept the outcome with great heart.
    i always say that i will guide my children til they r 18yrs, after 18yrs its time for u to face the world n make ur own decision n choices.
    i can feel ur pain now, but remember ur whole family will always stand behind u, forever!

    dad

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  2. Thank you dad.
    You're right - Shits always happen, but some runs while some stays. It might be a path full of bitterness and pain but yes, I'm trying all my best to do the right stuffs and learned as much as I could.
    But I know with the supports from the loved ones and the faith I had, I won't be lost in my chosen path.

    With love.

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